Saturday, December 31, 2005

Praise God and Pass the Wellbutrin

Just a note to say that I'm toddling along here. Christmas and Chanukkah have been very nice. Thank God my MIL was here. She's a dear and kept things running along, and the girls love being spoiled by their Nana. I love being spoiled by her, too. There are two meatloafs, a leg of lamb, and a kugel in the fridge.

I hate New Year's--not much of one for optimistic new beginnings. I do have one plan for the year. I joined a Yahoo group called Lectio Divina. The name's a bit of a misnomer, since we'll be reading through the Bible in a year, which seems a pretty rapid clip for actual Lectio Divina. It should be interesting, since the participants are all over the board, including a few pagans.

DramaQueen's sixth birthday is approaching. I finally settled on having a party in a pottery place, because it relieves me from practically all planning and hosting duties, except chasing down the parents of invited kids, because no one every bothers to RSVP. The woman who runs the pottery shop cheered me with the story of a little boy who had his party there and absolutely NO ONE showed up, not even his dad. It doesn't help that I've never met any of DramaQueen's classmates or their parents. Hurrah, with a new year begins new vacation and sick leave. Maybe I'll actually get to participate in a school activity, unless Firecracker decides on her annual February stay at the hospital.

Oh, and in a moment of weakness and financial panic I took on an editing project, when all I'd like to do is soak in a hot tub and read one of my Christmas presents, Red Moon Rising.

Thank you, everyone, for your prayers. I've had problems off and on with depression since my teens. After I had kids, I discovered that it's really easy to not notice when you're depressed. You have to focus so much on other people that the warning signs get buried in the day to day. I've also discovered that switching from one anti-depressant to another can be a real bitch.

Tonight, I plan to savor the leftover eggnog, with a splash of brandy. That should help the editing.


  1. Glad to have you back, Bad Alice. Glad you have a wonderful MIL and kugel. I do hope you have a happy new year and that God will bless you and yours richly.

  2. phew!

    soaking in a hot tub and reading a book sounds wonderful, hope you get to do it

    but I'm glad too you took the editing job - it will help the finances and I suspect you're pretty good at it too, especailly aided by brandy laced eggnog.

    good luck with the party. It's many years since we've had to have one of those - good memories though - in the main. One I took the boys to play football and DD served juice at 'half time' then we trooped back all muddy and I served them hamburgers and fries on the kitchen floor. They thought I was so cool - I thought I was practical. (it was too cold to eat outside - April is not spring here!)

    blessings and love.
    I'm not fan of New Year either.


  3. Sorry to find you've been depressed recently. I've also suffered with it a few times, but thankfully not too recently.

    my thoughts and prayer are with you of course. For me the plus side of having had it before (as you say you have) is that you know that it's only a matter of time before you come out the other side.

    I hope that's soon.

    You should be doing Genesis 1 today, right?

    Let there be light...

  4. Well, Well, it's good to see you back. I'm glad you're OK. Our prayers have been with you. Have a great party.

  5. Happy new year B.A.

    I've been praying for you and your family.

  6. I hope that the new year is a good one.

  7. Love and prayers for 2006...may it bring lots of chances to relax and lots of love and joy in unexpected places.

  8. OK...

    So a priest, a rabbi, and a buddhist monk walk into a bar...

    The bartender and looks up and says...

    "What's this?! Some kind of a joke?!"

    I know, I know... it's a groaner, but I heard you could use a laugh and this is the best I had on hand.

    Still praying.

  9. Hope you are well soon. I too have had a battle with depression and you are right as a mother our own needs are often last on the agenda.

    Hang in there and I wish you all the best in 2006.

  10. Glad you are doing better. Sometimes recognizing what is wrong is half the battle. Have a good time with the egg nog!

  11. Thank you for your email and prayers. I am slowing coming back to life. It's almost like suffering a death. I like you do not do well at the beginning of the New Year, and my current situation did not help matters at all. Thank God for Nanas! Hope your editing project goes smoothly and you can soak and read :)


  12. how's the editing going?

    I expect the eggnog is long gone now :)


  13. Q.:
    How many psychologists goes it take to change a light bulb?

    One, but the light bulb has to really want to change.


  14. Oh, I love lightbulb jokes.

    Q: How many Unitarians does it take to change a lightbulb?

    A: The Unitarians wish to issue the following statement:
    "We choose not to make a statement either in favor of or against the need for a lightbulb; however, if in your own journey you have found that lightbulbs work for you, that is fine. You are invited to write a poem or compose a modern dance about your personal relationship with your lightbulb, and present it next month at our annual lightbulb Sunday service, in which we will explore a number of lightbulb traditions, including incandescent, fluorescent, three-way, long-life and tinted, all of which are equally valid paths to luminescence."

  15. Even better:

    Q: How many Jewish mothers does it take to change a lightbulb?

    A: It's okay--I'll sit in the dark!

  16. How many Microsoft engineers does it take to change a lightbulb ?

    - None. Bill Gates wil just redefine Darkness (TM) to be the new industry standard.